Let it rain

Sometimes it is hard to be positive. To believe that there is something good around the corner. When this happens I google lots of "sayings"of some famous or just clever people and save them all into my phone. If someone went through my pictures they will see those times when I was somehow trying to overcome sadness and lost of faith in the future. It happens a lot. But its good to be sad sometimes. But not for long.Sadness comes like a wave.Like when I was standing on the beach and a bigger wave came and covered my shoes so i had to walk back home with wet feet. Sadness comes and goes comes and goes comes and goes... And clever people say:

I will let it rain...

I decided to believe you

When I was little I used to read books in which I could choose my own adventure. The story always got to the the point when I had 2 or 3 choices to make to continue. If I choose A this will happen...If I choose B this will happen... I never knew which choice was wrong and which will kill me.But after i died I returned to the decision page and chose the other option. Life is sometimes like that book but doesn't always let us return and change our decisions. When I met you I wasn't sure. Something was telling me that this will not end up good. This was a "decision page" and I chose to ignore those negative voices and to trust your words. Very big words: We will be together forever, You are my life, We will work together and live together,I love you. Other person was stupid that he left you when you loved him. Isn't that what every girl wants to hear and believe? Who would choose B when A sounds so good and sweet? Now with my heart broken I was listening to completely different words. Explanations. Love in other language has many meanings and levels. When I said "I love you" that was just normal love open to grow but not the highest level. Our cultures are different and you didn't understand what i mean. I have a choice today again. A) its all just an clever excuse , the way how to avoid responsibility for playing with my heart.Using culture as a shield. Instead of admitting that you simply lost interest. B) It is true. All your big words didn't mean the same in your and my language. I am choosing B I decided to believe you!